How does one get back to where they once were?

My creative juices have hit a bit of a lull right now. I was so motivated to get cracking not even two weeks ago, and now it seems I have hit that same wall I did back in June. I really want to get cracking on the things I love, letting my creative juices flow and create things... But there is this nagging feeling right now inside me that is making it so hard.

All around me I see people taking the time to create, and do the things they love, and start businesses. And I have to say it makes me a tiny bit green with envy. I fear disappointing, I fear rejection, I fear making a fool of myself. So that little voice inside me constantly says "don't do it!!!"

Lately it's all I hear and all I listen to.

Weddings, weddings and still more weddings...

In a bit of an update to a previous post, I've hung up on my wall six of the frames from the weddings we attended last year. I have to make 4 more for this year; this is a project constantly in the works. I still have to place the pictures inside the frames for most of these, but I wanted to show you all what they now look like. I think it's a nice tribute to all my friends - who I love dearly.

Here is what the mounted pictures look like...

My dearest Nana...

Ever since I came back "online" I have been wondering what to do as one of my first projects. It's hard to decide what to do when there is so much I want to accomplish before the end of the year. To get myself in the right frame of mind, I decided this weekend to clean up my "workspace" in the basement. This in turn lead to me moving furniture around, sweeping, cleaning, filing tons of bills, and finally (after all that procrastinating) organizing my area. I have to say, seeing how nice and clean it is really makes me want to get cracking. I owe a lot of people glasses, so those are one of the first things on my list.

However...

During my cleaning I stumbled upon a ton of old pictures. I'm talking old, as in my grandmother and grandfather back in the day. Black and white and timeless... One from their wedding, others of my dad and aunts and uncles as children, my grandfather in his Black Watch uniform... I forgot I had these pictures. But going through these pictures, I had a small breakdown.

It's been a while... Time for something new...

Happy October everyone!

I apologize for the long delay I updating my blog. It's a long story, well somewhat long and mostly just me filled with resentment... But I digress. I'm back! And that's what matters. The past few months consisted of me having pent up anger for something I had no control over. I thought I had control over thing, I was paying for a service that had come highly recommended by said persons reviews, but alas, I was screwed over. So no new blog template.

I let those feelings of Ill will harbor inside me for months, trying to get my money back for a service paid for. In the end, I've decided to just let it go. I'm not going to get my money back, and the layout i fell I love with will never be mine. I was even going to post the layout creator's websites and emails here for everyone to "avenge my anger", but I won't do it. I just, don't want to.